Yes I do not know you that well, but why? Why do I feel sour when people chatted about both of you? Is this what people called jealousy? You just appeared out of nowhere recently and I'm already here viewing your little facebook posts every hour. What does this mean?

No I can't like you, you're already gone from my grasp. I don't have the rights to fall in love with you. Please get out of my heart now. I'm feeling terrible.. Your face kept flashing past my eyes whenever I close them.. But, can you cure this despondency of mine? I don't know why but I wanted to see you again. Can you hear that my heart is in pain?

You took over her inside me, so sudden until I had already fallen for you. Just thinking of elias made me thought about her back then, but my mind chose you to think about currently. No, that can't be. It was almost 2 years since I last talked to her. I do not want to be a burden to her. Then what about you? Our last face to face conversation was on 8th april. I couldn't forget that day. What was I thinking of?

I'm in fear that I would dream of him and you getting married. Why? No, I could never love a girl within a day, what was in me? Am I cursed? I wanted you to read this blog post so much.. But on the other hand, I wish you would not. I am in a dilemma.. Am I afraid that you will ignore me?

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AmaranthineAlways