30/4/10

it's really a rare occasion to have 2 mates' in a day.

i think i'd tried too hard to be someone i'm not, so i'll stay the way i am. ^^

but a thing i had to admit, that is

my class only sang birthday song to tasman during WRTORAL but not to ryan?

to me that was so 'fuck'.

it's a 2 people date and there's only 1 person who got the limelight.

if i were ryan i would had just grabbed my bag, walked out of tut room and slammed the door straight.

imagine it's your birthday and you didn't get any birthday wishes.

plus the worst thing is that your mates only sang to tasman.

by the way i'm standing in between my great friends, i can't do nothing when 1 person solely gets the limelight while another stays in a corner.

i admire ryan seriously, he actually don't mind all these.

only thing i can do is to focus my sincerity to ryan is to talk with him and wish him.

i guess i'm the only person in my class who actually showed this level of concern to my mates.

while taking the FACOM notes, i dared to ask everyone in my class :

did anyone asked where has ryan gone to?

the answer is simple : no.

i had called him back then to confirm where he went mans.

he joined his other friends for lunch, without taking the notes, and just asked louise to safe keep his notes.

our class is somewhat split into 2 groups for guys.

i tried to be in both, but was outcasted in the 1st.

it's really hard.. really.

i had a lot to learn from ryan, even though i may be older than him.

ok bring to an end for that unhappiness.

i was wondering what happened to me for goodness sake!

yesterday i walked with my sister past a garden around 8pm+ back home and i suddenly recalled b/g relationship. Omgwthballs!

do i actually admire couples or admire myself free from girls?

these days i just can't help but cast my eyes to a girl.

and the worst thing is that that girl is somewhat related or behaves mysteriously like dandan.

i believe i'ma crazy balls.

'mysterious' has a significant meaning to me.

i'm so surprised that she mentioned that word in class.

i believe i had made a right decision to lost contact with her.

i had no regrets now. i let her flew and she was happy

we would had suffer more if still together.

she had lost the enthusiasm to chat with me, she's busy with her life, but i'll remember the fun we had back then, although we almost became together that time.

i'll remember what you said to me when you're in the flyer.

by the way i'm seriously a easy-crier and a sensitive person

i just wished you would not read my blog or even pass here at all.

{{ 30.4.10 -
AmaranthineAlways